Dear life and love

i want to go back to who i am.
in the great situation.
gue ga ngerti apa yang salah sama hari ini
dan ga ngerti kenapa gue yang cupu dulu malah lebih baik dibanding yang sekarang.

dear life,
maybe i cant live in the right place, in the right way.
but please give me more strange to walk in there.
maybe you wont give me what i want.
i hope you really really give me what i need.
you know im suck with this situation.
and i cant be what you want.
but please love me as who i am.
there nothing (nobody) cant love me like that.
then i just having you and everything on you to love me as well.

dear love,
year by year i learn something new from you.
everyplace take me to another 'me'.
and right now,
i think i dont comfort with my own self.
could you let me be me in the past?
or you want me to stay in this another 'me' which not me?

i dont  want to love someone seriously.
because he got my hopes.
and i cant hopes on him.
mungkin gue emang bakal bertahan
but please gak selebay ini.
gue gamau peduli dia ngapain aja
gue gamau semua yang dia lakuin ngaruh terus ke hidup gue
he has his own life, and either i am.

aaargh! just throw this fucking bad feeling from me!!!

messed up,
Syenit Shinoda